FREE to CHOOSE

I Believe in a Freedom. Freedom of Choice, of Speech and Free Will. And that is such a great Gift.

So, if it is true that as a Soul, an Energy we Decide about the Lessons we Want to learns and then Decide about the Scenario of Our Life, then about the Body to Serve Us on our Journey – how powerful this Freedom is?

I used to believe, that things happen to us. As a child I have witnessed plenty of dramatic situations caused by an alcoholic society, by my drinking parents. I didn’t understand Why. But maybe that was the wrong question to ask?

Somehow I have found myself a pattern, a way to escape that Madness and Chaos surrounding Me at the time – when parents were fighting, bitting each other, screaming and not paying any attention to the horror me and my brother went through, I started to escape and walk. Walk for hours. I was just a child, the town was small but I walked until the tears stopped shedding, no more thoughts would appear in my head. Until I had the courage to go back home to check what’s left inside.

I used to think it is all my fault. And I believed that any moment might be the last one as the house we lived in could burn at night (due to irresponsible parents behavior). I used to Smile. Almost all the time, to hide what was really happening. Parents thought us to never talk about anything that happens in our house. To anyone, because it’s a shame.

Somehow the will to Survive was stronger than anyone expected. And I HAVE CHOSEN, as soon as it was possible, to CHANGE MY LIFE. Right Before I was 18 I told them, that I am moving out to the Capital of my country.

Before I’ve packed my bags for the 1st time, I still cherished the moment, every single day. I found a job to be able to pay for myself in a big city, what I’ve earned would last for 2 months only but I still wanted to try. So working and walking, knowing that soon I will change my environment, I payed attention to small beautiful things – like the mist sitting down on the field of corn before the sunrise.

That CHOICE changed my life, but was just the beginning of a long Journey.

I didn’t stay in that city, nor settled down in a country. I kept escaping my own fear, as I have in my childhood…

There were times when I had no roof over my head. Other times I had no Food to Eat. Plenty of Times I had to put my Pride aside and ask for help. Especially after my child was born. But Nobody said it is going to be easy. Still, it was Way better than going back to live with my Parents. I have Refused to go the ‘Easy’ way. I have listened to my intuition and CHOSE to fight.

And this is the HONEST TRUTH – You CANNOT Run Away Forever nor ESCAPE FROM YOUR FEAR. The only way to fix something is to CONFRONT IT. Which basically means we must MAKE A DECISION TO FIGHT OUR OWN MIND. Why mind you would ask?

Because, unfortunately, years of running have transformed into a pattern. But what if that pattern no longer serves our goals?

I have that pattern to ‘forget about it for a moment’ and then procrastinate until it fixes itself. It doesn’t fix itself…

You Are Free to Choose Your Way. Which one Sounds Better 4 U? Choose Your Hard.

I believe in Freedom – Can You Imagine that we put ourselves in cages, and it all happens inside of our mind? But, the person who holds the key to the cage is YOU!

So many of my friends don’t want to be free. They choose to stay in a victim mode. Why? Is it really so much easier not to move, to stay in a paralyzed “play dead” biological state that serves animals to survive in the jungle?

Our Jungle is different. And You know What? I refuse to only ‘SURVIVE’.

I am Happy to have a Free Will to CHOOSE another Way.

What do You think About This?